Sometimes things come up from those shadowy areas of myself that I like to try and shed light on.

Thorns

You say sadness is easy
Happiness is harder to bear
Why then is it so heavy
This cloak that I wear
Tried hard to shed light
On the darkness inside
The hunger for love
From life I did hide

Perhaps my protection
Came from elsewhere
Leaving nest it was gone
I’m standing naked and bare
Lost my mind in the skies
My body left alone
My boat it capsized
I was torn from my throne

Drank deep of a cup
Full of poison and sin
My mind made up
Life of smoke and gin
Filling that deep void
With my plan of escape
Drown out white noice
With chemical self rape

Sensitivity blunted
That doing my own
Felt so tired and hunted
Not even fully grown
This was my blanket
It gave me security
Perhaps I should thank it
Served me well I can see

Shedding this coat
After long winter breaks
Spring comes with a groan
Slowly upping the stakes
Skin left red raw
It was never so thick
Didn’t grow much at all
I feel each thorny prick